Some people just don't make any sense

Ok, so, am I stupid or what? You have a boyfriend. Every weekday you hang out from 7:30am til whenever at his house. Something happens and you can no longer go to his house, but he can come to yours, and it was already discussed that he would. For three days straight you wait for him to wake up since 8am. No response to your texts until 11am to noon. A nice three or four hours. Is it stupid of me to be upset? To assume that things were supposed to go as normal and expect to hear something around 7:30? Or do I really have to iterate every single detail of the day?

And how hard is it to stop doing one small thing you ask him to do? Months later he still does it. On purpose. One day you just decide to start ignoring it, since he's already ignoring your requests. Then you send him a text, and he tells you he "fucking hate[s] it". That's the first you've heard of him hating what you just sent him, but he says it like you're supposed to be psychic and just know everything he's thinking. You're supposed to be psychic about his wants, likes and dislikes, but you have to give step by step details of every fucking hour of the day and be painstakingly specific about what you want. Right.

Oh, and to top it all of, your boyfriend takes every little detail personal, completely ignoring the actual meaning of whatever it was. Yeah, I'm sure your boyfriend would just love to be in the same place as one of your best friends who he absolutely HATES and told to go kill herself. What a happy ending.

Don't want a text back? You won't get one. There's no fucking "sorry" that can fix this one. Sorry isn't good enough. Can't ask my friend where I am now.

Tomorrow a Tablet

I found out there are tablets under $100. I can't believe I never knew this! Tomorrow, I'm going to go out and get one, and finish a drawing I've stopped working on about a week ago. I spent two hours reading reviews, specs, etc., and I've decided on the Wacom Bamboo Pen. Just a small one for now. I don't really need the Bamboo Fun because we have Corel software at the college.

Slow to No Progress

This diet thing isn't working out so well. After a week and a half of eating several times a day, I slowed down to only twice a day, if that. I feel like a camel. Plus I've missed the last three sermons on Sunday and I'm still only on page 20 something in the Bible and the book is due next week. Now that classes have started, I don't think I'll have much time to finish it. Six hours of lab per week is mandatory, and that's outside of homework.

It's 6:30AM and I'm freakin bored...

Why am I even awake?! I wanna go do something but everyone is asleep or at work :( I don't have any video games I want to play. Xbox 360 is horrible. Nothing online is any exciting at the moment. Just found out the car I like is no longer imported, but I was looking for a used car anyway so I guess that's a good thing. Scion's replacement for it is the xD and that car is FUGLY.

I also want a new phone, but I have TMobile and...their phone selection is a bit lacking. They're getting Google's Nexus One but :( I wonder how much that will be.

I bet I lost weight compared to last week. All because I got sick. I don't eat very much when I'm sick. I just lay there and fester lol. Lay, lie? I forget. I probably just go take a shower and take a nap. I'm so wired up that I don't even feel like drawing (which I love to do) or reading (I started The Da Vinci Code).

You know what I think it is? Shopping. I want to buy things but I refuse to let myself. Bad. Shopping is bad. Don't do it!! Must pay bills.

First Day of Class

So, last night was the first day of class. First was 3D animation. Lol. The first thing the instructor told us is that out of the 30 students there that night, only 10 would remain at the end of the semester, and if you're the type to procrastinate, this is not the class for you. I am QUEEN of procrastination. :'( He's a cool instructor tho, I like the art department. Very lively people.

Next came macro-economics. I just HAD to pick the teacher with the voice that sounds like he's singing all the time. It's not the good kind of singing either...Anyway, it took a whole hour for me to cancel out the sound of his voice and actually concentrate on what he was saying. He kept us there for the entire three hours x_x Surprisingly though, only three or four people in the whole class were unemployed. Everyone else had jobs. Wtf? The class should be relatively easy though.

When I got home the money had come in the mail. All ten checks -_-'' Nice way to save trees there, California. After a few bills and college fees, I have 60$ out of the money the bank left available. Oh yeah, and I actually was able to run up three flights of stairs without dying at the top! Yay!

Diet is still going a little slow. I can't get used to eating more wheat than I usually do, but the dairy part I can do easy. Started reading the Bible a few days ago. Still only ten pages into it >< Too many other distractions like video games.

School Tomorrow T_T

Here's a recap of my weekend, starting on Friday:

Friday, I weighed myself. Guess how much I weigh now?!! 116lbs!!! OMG I gained ONE whole pound in one week! I probably wouldn't have even gained that much if I hadn't been eating all that peanut butter and nutella. Everything I seem to like to eat is low in calories, so it's a big change to my diet. I stopped buying milk about two years ago because no one in the apartment drinks or uses it so it always goes bad. The biggest reason why I probably don't gain weight is because I have a bad habit of chewing on ice.

-__-'' Later, I went to the library with Niraj, and I found a Bible! Not the version I wanted but it's still a Bible. I checked it out and so far I have only read about five pages. I kind of forgot I even had books... I also got Memoirs of a Geisha (my favorite), The Da Vinci Code (still haven't seen the movie), and some Japanese tapes (that I had bought for myself but my sisters lost the cds).

Saturday and Sunday I drew two wallpapers of myself. They're not very good, but I think I did ok. They're listed under my Deviant Art account on the side.

So, now I'm just waiting for the unemployment dept to send me my check. I have no idea why they couldn't send it at the same time as they sent the freakin claim form. Seriously, send it all in one envelope and stop killing trees, please. This morning I finally cleaned the bathroom. It was getting dusty. I don't know how, there's no window in there... Only took me about an hour, sniffling the whole time because I've been sick for two or three days now. And it's raining :(

Tomorrow is the first day of class. Econ 101 (macro? micro?) and Computer Graphics 105 (for...idk I think a web design certificate lol). I completely forgot I hadn't yet fulfilled that section of the GE requirement. I don't think I've done the sociology/anthropology section either. I'll probably finish Japanese classes before I get to those.

Right now I'm watching a show about hoarders, and wondering if I should go outside today because it's raining again. I can't wait for summer to come. I've gotten a little pale :( and I miss the beach. You know what's weird? I can be out in the sun for 3 hours at the beach and barely change a shade or two, but if I stay in the pool for only an hour I look burnt...

Today Was Bad....

I finally got a hold of the state unemployment office and found out they messed up big time, and now it will cost me my car. Nice to know that when you really need help, the government is not there for you. I've been waiting since August '09 for even a little something, but I get nothing.

I'm not so sure about karma anymore. People always say you get what you deserve, but this time it's not working out that way. I always gave to people who needed it. Always listen to other's problems and gave advice, making absolutely sure I didn't hurt their fragile feelings (some of those people really needed and still need a slap across the face). I really don't understand what I did to deserve all this, but ok. Have it your way :/