School Tomorrow T_T

Here's a recap of my weekend, starting on Friday:

Friday, I weighed myself. Guess how much I weigh now?!! 116lbs!!! OMG I gained ONE whole pound in one week! I probably wouldn't have even gained that much if I hadn't been eating all that peanut butter and nutella. Everything I seem to like to eat is low in calories, so it's a big change to my diet. I stopped buying milk about two years ago because no one in the apartment drinks or uses it so it always goes bad. The biggest reason why I probably don't gain weight is because I have a bad habit of chewing on ice.

-__-'' Later, I went to the library with Niraj, and I found a Bible! Not the version I wanted but it's still a Bible. I checked it out and so far I have only read about five pages. I kind of forgot I even had books... I also got Memoirs of a Geisha (my favorite), The Da Vinci Code (still haven't seen the movie), and some Japanese tapes (that I had bought for myself but my sisters lost the cds).

Saturday and Sunday I drew two wallpapers of myself. They're not very good, but I think I did ok. They're listed under my Deviant Art account on the side.

So, now I'm just waiting for the unemployment dept to send me my check. I have no idea why they couldn't send it at the same time as they sent the freakin claim form. Seriously, send it all in one envelope and stop killing trees, please. This morning I finally cleaned the bathroom. It was getting dusty. I don't know how, there's no window in there... Only took me about an hour, sniffling the whole time because I've been sick for two or three days now. And it's raining :(

Tomorrow is the first day of class. Econ 101 (macro? micro?) and Computer Graphics 105 (for...idk I think a web design certificate lol). I completely forgot I hadn't yet fulfilled that section of the GE requirement. I don't think I've done the sociology/anthropology section either. I'll probably finish Japanese classes before I get to those.

Right now I'm watching a show about hoarders, and wondering if I should go outside today because it's raining again. I can't wait for summer to come. I've gotten a little pale :( and I miss the beach. You know what's weird? I can be out in the sun for 3 hours at the beach and barely change a shade or two, but if I stay in the pool for only an hour I look burnt...

Today Was Bad....

I finally got a hold of the state unemployment office and found out they messed up big time, and now it will cost me my car. Nice to know that when you really need help, the government is not there for you. I've been waiting since August '09 for even a little something, but I get nothing.

I'm not so sure about karma anymore. People always say you get what you deserve, but this time it's not working out that way. I always gave to people who needed it. Always listen to other's problems and gave advice, making absolutely sure I didn't hurt their fragile feelings (some of those people really needed and still need a slap across the face). I really don't understand what I did to deserve all this, but ok. Have it your way :/

Friday

I weighed myself today: 115 lbs. Every Friday I'm going to weigh myself and I better gain at least a few pounds. Today I ate chicken fajitas for lunch (the frozen TGIF kind) and some tortilla chips that we made, fried in canola oil. Couple hours later I had a large fry and.... lol 16 chicken nuggets from Burger King with a Sprite (ew soda). Must've seemed strange to the rest of the joggers at the park, seeing a skinny person obviously wearing workout clothes and eating a bunch of food from Burger King.

On a side note, Niraj asked me if I was going to become religious. I think it started because he asked me if I would lend someone money they needed even though I needed it myself. There was a short time when I was 12 or 13 that I took time to read the Bible and try to understand it. I do remember reading somewhere (or maybe it was a church sermon) that you should give your last pennies to someone less fortunate, and that's what I do. I still remember the shocked look on one man's face when I gave him a $20 the day he asked for some change. It's nice to make someone else happy.

Anyway, I do live by some principles in the Bible, even though I was not really raised in a religious family. My mother, though, used to always read her Bible, and write notes in it. I don't know why she stopped. I still would like to, once I get one. I had a Bible, but I don't know what happened to it. I think it's at my mom's house, now that I think about it. My friend Jerry had bought one for both my sisters and I. Oops. I always go off topic. Well, Niraj also asked me what's so different about Dr. Stanley, and why do I listen to him over others. Simple, I don't like feeling forced or coerced into doing something. Your opinion is nice and all, but I don't like to base my decisions off another person's opinion if I have not yet seen the words of the Bible myself. I like Dr. Stanley because he explains the Bible in a way that I can understand. He doesn't yell, doesn't talk all about money, and he has a nice calming voice that won't make me fall asleep. I'm doing well so far, two Sundays in a row and another Sunday coming up!

My Diet So Far

Ok so yesterday I started eating like a fatty (nickname my bf gave me because I'm so thin but I eat like a pig). I didn't have breakfast (shame), but for lunch I had a huge chicken sandwich from Burger King (bbq sauce added), a chocolate shake, and fries. For dinner we went to TGIF and got my faaaaaaaaaavorite Jack Daniel's chicken sandwich. That sauce is SOOO good you have to try it. We shared so I only ate half the sandwich but I got a plate of potato skins on the side along with the french fries. No idea what I ate before that because I wasn't that hungry.

And today....all I had was a sausage mcmuffin from McD's and stir fry for lunch. Lol. Day #2 down the drain :( I'm craving some bbq ribs and fried chicken tho...and I never eat fried chicken. I need a journal to keep track of how many calories I'm eating. For reals.

Maybe I'll start working out this time...?

Yesterday I had so much fun! Niraj, two of his friends, and I all went to Fashion Island in Newport Beach (rich area where people have a lake big enough for their yachts as a backyard). There was some construction going on, and I didn't see the merry-go-round but we had a nice time at the Koi Pond. Right when we got there, some guy just stared at me as he walked by. It was creepy, but he was tall and cute. Niraj said some old dude gawked at me too :( .We tried to find the beach that was literally 10 minutes away but Niraj never knows where the hell he's going ( ._. ilu). So we ended up on Pacfic Coast Highway in Huntingon Beach. I swear, that was way faster than getting on the freeways. I love PCH, highway right next to the beach all the way to Washington state. The streets were closed off for markets in front of the side shops. Mostly surf shops ( I can't even swim). He bought a money tree for his mom, and a lady at one of the stands kept giving me fruit samples. There was a sausage/hot dog stand, the kind that grill onions and peppers. Omg, I don't like pork much, but that sausage was good. I couldn't eat it all because we had had Wahoo's for dinner about an hour or so before.

Next, we dropped off his two friends and took a walk around the Block of Orange. He wanted a hat, beanie....thing lol. They didn't have any that looked good. Old Navy was having a 75% of sale so I made him go in with me. Of course, they didn't have anything I've been looking for for the past month. They either don't have my size or don't have the color I want. He picked out a grey/green lil yoga outfit for me. I've never worn anything that shows my stomach in public...ok wait, ONCE, but omg it was in a bar and that was a really bad idea....

This morning, I woke up, cleaned up my laptop a lil bit (omg I can't find the virus), showered, and put on the outfit, tags still attached. I did some stretches for about 15 min and it feels good! But now I'm sleepy and I think I'm just going to pass out on the couch. Lol. Victory.

Neat Websites

I found this cute website called Etsy, where people sell their handmade items like purses, jewelry, scarves, laptop skins, patterns, etc.

For those who like a good drink every now and then, there's a site called Drinks Mixer. All kinds of recipes for alcoholic drinks, and even tips/guides for bartenders.

Just thought I'd share the fruits of my boredom :)

So much for a great start

Trying to stay happy when so many bad things are happening is harder than I thought. And to think, this is all because some woman in the California Employment office had a stick up her ass the day she called me. I'm unemployed, and because she decided to lie, I have not had any income since August. I risk losing my car and my apartment. If that happens, I can't even go home, because my mother refuses to talk to me. I just don't understand why life happens this way.